Set Fire to the Rain.....

Set Fire to the Rain....

The Adele song.... "Set Fire to the Rain".... I think has an underlying message,

...to achieve the impossible.... by setting fire to rain. Achieving something that can not be done.

It has been a few weeks since my last post purely because "life" became a challenge.

Until recently, there has been no time for me to centre myself and no time to clear my mind...no light.  I have felt trapped, constantly walking on shaky ground- not knowing where to place my feet and awakening each day into darkness.  Held hostage by a lack of sleep and stability, my thoughts were constantly racing causing my head to hurt from making decisions..... so many decisions. I held my breathe and shut my eyes praying the storm would eventually come to end....which it did. 

"They never Last.....!"

So as the sunlight warms my soul .... what have I learnt?  Has my experiences in the past 8 weeks.... made me wiser, stronger, more determined, more focussed, more hopeful and trusting?  I would have to say "Yes" , although I did ask a friend the other day....

"Why is it that I need to be constantly tested?". It's exhausting!

But I guess challenges are just that... they are meant to confront us... they are there to help us grow stronger, more resilient, to teach us, to live the experience..... and survive!

So much has happened.... it may need to be addressed over the next few weeks. 

For a super quick update;

My youngest has now been taken off Ritalin.... my choice and I am so glad I did!

My eldest has successfully graduated from Year 7.... ready to enter the world of High School, a new chapter, next year.

My youngest has survived or rather his teachers have survived, his first year of full time main stream schooling....finishing Year One.

I have had so many specialists appointments that Medicare awarded me a gold star for frequent visiting.... (just kidding)..... the most rewarding was my yearly appointment with Professor Tony Attwood with my youngest son.

I have discovered that my youngest now responds to melatonin.... hooray.... no need for a tranquillizer dart to help him go to sleep.

I have obtained a beautiful second-hand, old piano to teach the youngest how to communicate through Music.

A few more bridges have been built between the boys father and I.  Is it enough to  continue working together towards the best interest of our children ?..... I hope so....

for their sake.

My youngest is beginning to slowly lower his heels to the ground for short periods of time.  A lot of massage and stretches have taken place... and this needs to continue, at least until I can get the referral to the Rehabilitation Physiotherapist.

Professor Tony Attwood and I are chasing the Sleep E.E.G avenue once again... but at least this time I have his support. Hopefully now things will move ahead here.

Both boys have had hearing tests at the Neurosensory Unit, Holy Spirit Hospital.... with the results coming back all clear. In fact I am convinced the only frequency that my eldest son cannot hear.... is the Mum Frequency.

Holidays have arrived.... and even though the first few days have been busy, I enjoy watching and listening to my youngest talking more, inspired by the Christmas Spirit! - Especially yelling out in the middle of Mass.... "Where is Baby Jesus?"

I have received some surprising, yet wondrous words of praise and support from people... that was totally unexpected.... humbling me to hear.

and finally.....

Once again, I trust my intuition, my faith, my judgements and my ambitions in life.

I trust me.....letting my light shine, which was the theme behind my eldest son's Graduation. I can breathe again!

"Prayer is you talking to God. Intuition is God talking back."

Wayne Dyer


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