The Stormy Autism Waters.... and keeping your family afloat!
As you know from my previous post.... the storm of Autism has well and truly set in.
I have been struggling to cope and "stay afloat....keeping my head above water."
Well as unpredictable as the ocean is.....so to is life.
Today the first sign that maybe the waters are beginning to settle.
Yes it's still raining, the boat is still rocking and winds are blowing....but today those waves didn't seem as big.
There are several things that maybe behind this little sign of hope....
1. The fact that I vented to you all last night, blogging.... thinking through some thoughts.... pros vs cons, reflecting.
2. The fact that I have spent all afternoon with my eldest son's Psychologist, talking, crying, reasoning about everything that has been going on. Just to hear him say.... "Yeah you are having to deal with a lot....." was like music to my ears.
3. The fact that today.... for the first time in 4 weeks, my youngest son has had a great day. No head-banging, settled, happy, content. Even achieving 9/10 in a spelling test.
Just gorgeous! When his aide told me this.....I hugged her!
So tonight... even though my head hurts from all the emotion and thinking.... and even though I am still run down.... I have a reason to smile.
Once that happens I have hope and know that I can make it through this storm.
I believe that there are some things in life we cannot beat or win or have in our favour.... acceptance is a great power!
Sometimes it takes more strength to choose to walk away from an issue or wait, saving ourselves for another battle another day. It doesn't mean we are weak, nor that we have lost.... it means we are choosing what is right for us.
Sometimes we need to stop fighting ourselves and see things for what they are.....
Have a great weekend.... I am hopeful we will too.
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